IVF and Tidying

I was all excited this morning, excited that IVF was starting. I like being on a treatment cycle because it means there is a chance of ending the month pregnant.

I went to the park first. I was there for sunrise when there was a pink glow. I popped home and then took my breakfast to the duck pond. It was too chilly to sit for long but I spent time picking blackberries and that temporarily brought me a bit more down to earth.

I had to wait until 9 before the clinic opened. They were mega efficient this morning. The phone was answered straight away by a receptionist. I think this one was quite new as it took her a while to use the computer. Then she advised me to refrain from unprotected sex LOL.

Anyway, only about 20 minutes later, the nurse phoned me, and it was the really nice nurse who did my scratch. I’m to go for a scan two weeks tomorrow. Then the following day they will defrost my eggs and then there will be a nervous 1-5 days whilst we see what happens. Pregnancy test will likely be 13th Oct – I should have therapy that day so will have support if I need it. I’m not testing early this time.

I decided to have one last sugary caffeinated Nescafe Mocha to celebrate the start of this cycle 🙂 From now on, no more caffeinated coffee and no more sugar.

The other thing I was doing this morning was the weaving kit I purchased at the craft show on Friday. I really like weaving! So much so, that I want to go out and buy myself a proper wooden loom, and spend the next few weeks weaving. I want to try weaving with different materials, weaving with decorative accessories such as beads, buttons and charms, and learn how to weave patterns. The joys of crafts and their costs! The kit has come with a cardboard loom and it is reusable so being sensible I will have to make do with this loom and the wool, fabric and accessories that I already have.

This afternoon I have spent time time tidying my bedroom. Not so good feelings were quickly generated and I took some time out to observe what might be going on. I don’t want to detail what I observed because it’s taken a few hours to calm me. What I did do is chose to continue tidying despite the uncomfortable feelings. It wasn’t quite bullying and I have been left with a tidier room which I will hopefully appreciate at some point.

For the rest of this evening, I’m going to start on my next blackwork embroidery project. I feel I want to spend time on something that counts towards something (the plan to try selling my designs), rather than just gaming or reading or something just for me. I feel I spend far too much time not doing anything that might lead to progress or a sense of accomplishment. That is down to my emotional issues and not laziness. I just think I would feel better if I was spending more time on more constructive activities.